First Post-Op Appointment

Happy Easter Friends!

My pretty girls in their new Easter dresses!  My daughters OMG Becky and Sassy with two of my nieces, Myo and Hoppy, before church this morning.  (Hoppy got a new purple bunny.  Her favorite thing in her favorite color!)

Easter dresses

Sorry to leave you hanging the last few days.  Last I posted I was heading to my first post-op doctor appointment.

The appointment went fine.  They decided they didn’t need to do an x-ray that day.  They just wanted to change my dressing and clean my incision.

I started out strong.  They removed the first layer, the brown ace bandage-type wrap.  Next was a soft, cotton layer they had to cut off.

broken ankle

That was okay until they tried cutting it from the bottom up.  The top of my foot was surprisingly tender!

The cotton decided it really liked my leg and didn’t want to come all the way off.  Probably didn’t help that it was originally put on over betadine in the operating room.

broken ankle

And my leg hair is helping to hold onto the cotton, too.   I look like I have white old lady leg hair now.  Lovely.  Also notable is the squiggle of permanent marker on my foot.  They marked me in pre-op so they would make sure to operate on the correct ankle.  Always a good thing!

Next up was a layer of gauze   This is where I started to lose it.  I noticed the gauze was not so white.  There was dried body fluids on there that became more evident the more it was unwrapped.

broken ankle with fracture blister

I started to feel like I was going to pass out and/or maybe throw up.

Under the gauze was a square of padding just big enough to cover the incision.  I warn you, the photo is below, but you will have to scroll to see it.  I don’t want to gross anyone out!  And don’t worry, I will leave a large space after the two incision photos, so feel free to safely scroll to the very bottom of the post, if you like!

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broken ankle incision

I had to lay back and ask for a trashcan.  Not good.  That was all I could take.  The unwrapping had to be paused for a few minutes.

Don’t worry.  This type of reaction is normal for me.  I once passed out at the vet office when they pushed a pill down my cat’s throat.  I do not deal well with blood, body fluids, vomit, etc.  Just ask my poor daughters.  Bad mommy in that department.  I miss the ex-husband only when our girls have medical needs.  Ick!  Finally they had to remove the last bit of dressing over the wound itself.  I couldn’t take a picture of it.  I couldn’t even look at it!  My nice doctor offered to take one.  He even said “smile!” as he took it.  As if!

Another long scroll before the photo…

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broken ankle incision

I honestly didn’t have the courage to look at this photo for the first time until 12 hours later.  And then it made me nauseous again.  It just looks so Frankenstein like!  I expected it to be smoother, but I guess that will happen with time since there is still a lot of swelling in my foot and lower leg.  The entire area is puffy.  I can’t really tell how long the incision is.  I was told going before the surgery it would be about 3″ inches, but this looks longer to me.  I think there are eleven staples that I can see.  Yuck.

And I can’t tell if those are just bruises above the incision or if I have new varicose veins/spider veins happening?  Whatever it is, I hope it disappears with the swelling!

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~   ~   ~   BACK TO SAFE VIEWING FOR ALL!   ~   ~   ~

Doctor says everything looks good.  We talked about my pain management   I told him I had cut back from 2 pain killers every four hours to one painkiller every four hours.  He said it was okay to now take it just as needed, trying to spread out when I’m taking them.  I am only taking one every 6-8 hours now.  The goal is to be painkiller free by the end of this coming week.  I really don’t like how they make me feel.  I have hot and cold flashes on them.  I feel groggy.  Hard to concentrate.  I’m just really ready to be done with them.

This week I am to keep the foot up again and still no weight on it.  I will have my next appointment this Thursday afternoon.  Doctor will see if the staples are ready to come out at that time.  And we will talk about me possibly going back to work next Monday!  Scary but I’m on day 13 of being on the couch and I’m going a bit crazy.

So my appointment was fine.  And then we got home.  My mom pulled up in the driveway and I wanted to go through the front door because it was closer than going through the garage and all the way through the house to the front living room.  Sounded like a good plan until I was coming through the doorway and the storm door caught my good foot.  I fell through the doorway, doing a complete split landing on my injured foot.  Cuss words were uttered.  I felt instant pain in my groin and my foot.  Que the waterworks.  My mom had to help me up and to the couch.  I spent the rest of the afternoon feeling sorry for myself and wondering if I had done more damage to the ankle.

I was feeling physically better the next day.  I don’t think I re-injured anything, but it was a huge blow to my mental healing.  I was so angry at myself for falling.  Even though it was a complete accident!  I know that, but it didn’t stop me from being angry at the situation.  Angry that I was injured.  Angry I had spent so much time (10 days!) lying around, trying to heal and then had possibly hurt myself again in a split second.

I’m feeling better about it now.  I know that healing is happening.  And I know I need to get back on board with the mental game.  I am just not use to being in a situation beyond my control.  Slowing down and waiting for things to happen is just not the usual for me.  I’m used to making things happen when, where and how I want.  This situation is a huge life lesson in patience.  I am trying to be a good student, even though it’s hard sometimes.

I have to tell you how good it feels to know I have so many good friends out there in blogland, especially during this not so easy time.  Your emails, tweets and comments have been a great spirit booster!  You all really are the best!

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15 thoughts on “First Post-Op Appointment

  1. Jade

    Um seeing those pics was almost too much for me, I don’t know what I would do if it were me! Lol @ the cat pill story! I, glad things seem to be healing ok. Your girls are adorable in their new dresses 🙂

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  2. paigesato

    Totally with you on the bodily fluid, meds, nausea issue. I’m the same way. Sorry about your nasty spill, and hoping your recovery continues smoothly.

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  3. Stephanie@nowirun.com

    You were so sweet to add the space for people who might not want to look at the pictures. I’ve had an ACL reconstruction and have seen how battered up an incision can look. That can be really upsetting. I am SO sorry you fell, but I’m glad your mom was there b/c that is probably exactly who you’d want to listen to you feel sorry for yourself for awhile!
    Stay strong!! You can do this!!

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      1. Stephanie@nowiun.com

        I only had problems with it for a couple of years when I tried to play soccer (I called it “mom soccer”). Running doesn’t bother it at all. I got the surgery in 1997 so it was a long time ago! 🙂

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